So I've been on my own now for nearly a month. I've been making it ok I think. It certainly helps that I paid off my debts before I moved out, and have a substansial amount in savings. I have to do my own laundry now, which I don't mind, but I feel like I get in my roommate's way when I do it. I woke up this morning at like 5 am, for whatever reason, and decided to wash my sheets, because they were starting to smell funky. I try to be quiet and the washing machine isn't really that loud, but apparently I woke her up anyway, so as I was remaking my bed with other sheets, she was taking her clothes out of the dryer. I really didn't mean to do that to her, I was just trying to stay out of her way, since she seemed to be using the washer and dryer the entire day yesterday. I think next week at the bank starts mandatory overtime. I still have a bit of a sore throat and earache that won't quit and that is really annoying, because the doctor was just like oh a virus, too bad, drink fluids. I'm like yeah thanks, I wanted some drugs to feel better. Whatever.

I feel like I am behind sometimes. So many of my friends my age are already married, and a lot of them with babies already. I'm like what did I do wrong that I don't have that? It's not that I'm jealous, it's just that I feel like I have failed. What is wrong with me that no one wants to marry me? I guess that is the truth of what I feel. I am intelligent, witty sometimes, been told that I am beautiful or gorgeous, so what's not to love? I don't know. I have a tremendously hard time letting people get close, but it seems when I do try to reach out to people, they just shut me out. A prime example is the theatre majors of NGU. With a few notable exceptions, they all seem to either ignore or despise me, and I still don't know what I did to piss them off. I mean, if talking about the news made me come off as superior or something, I would apologize, but none of them would ever bother to tell me what I had done that made me "uncool". I suppose they are far too busy dating each other and existing in their neat little bubble.

I got an email about a possible job offer, that I might consider, but they said that HR would call in "the next few weeks", so I don't know how long that will take.

I am stage managing Desire Desire Desire, one of the 3 plays making up 3-D Theatre!

It is only $8 this Friday and Saturday at the Greenville Little Theatre. Come out for some laughs, some tears, and a good time all around.

I am also moving to a condo in Spartanburg this weekend. I am excited to be on my own somewhat and also a little bit anxious that I won't be able to handle taking care of myself.

It is strange to think that a week from today I will be 24 years old.